September 26, 2003

Settling In

Okay, so I haven’t been writing much. And this is probably the time I should be writing the most, because in twenty years I’ll want to look back at this and see what I was thinking, what I was doing during this time. But when I do look back there won’t be anything here. It will just be blank pages for days and days. It’ll be like how I got so excited about rereading my travel journal from ten years ago, but the further I got into it the more pissed off at myself I became because back when I wrote it I didn’t actually write about what was happening or what I was seeing. I don’t want that same thing to happen now. That’s exactly the reason I set up the BabyBlog, so I could just write and write about everything. And yet it sits, mostly empty. I haven’t posted any new pictures, I haven’t even fluffed up the design yet. I’m becoming a disappointment to myself.

Of course, maybe the reason all this is happening is because instead of writing about life I’m choosing to actually dive in and live it. I have a wife and a new baby. They’re getting my attention now. And the time I do spend on the computer is spent catching up on work, because I’m only spending four hours a day at the office now. So it’s a weird little paradox I’m caught up in here, where I have a life but I don’t have the time to write about it, and if I did have the time to write, I wouldn’t have the life to write about. So I made a choice, and life won. Plus, I haven’t been getting any noticable amount of sleep lately, and I’ve found that sleep deprivation does wonders for writer’s block. Original thought is something that doesn’t come easily to me anyway. Toss a few bleary-eyed mornings into the mix, and you’re lucky if I can string together a coherent sentence. I could be writing through all of this, but the result might look like I had just flipped through a dictionary at random and chosen words by sticking a pin in the page. Circumflex signatory envelops ignoble stockyard! Mushroom?

Things will return to a more normal flow. We’re settling into a routine, a routine that means a little more time for non-baby activities. Right now, for example. Do you think I’d be able to be writing this if Viola wasn’t rocking the baby to sleep in the chair?

And you never know. The Computer Vet Weblog might actually start writing about computers one day. Imagine that!

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  1. Kalrac says:

    I've got a program that'll produce nonsense for you, if that's what you want…
    And look at it this way: At least you're not dispassionate.

    Posted September 26, 2003 @ 8:53 am
  2. Kalrac says:

    Oh, and by the way, you might want to change the “Yes, he isn't even born yet” line the next time you touch that Baby Blog…

    Posted September 26, 2003 @ 8:54 am

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